Popstarz!

Last night I get a call from Chase Korte, who I hadn't seen in about a year, and who just got back from walking accross Great Britain, literally. So I invite dhim to come out with me and justin who had been planning to get together anyway. So we headed out to Popstarz...and look at the fun that was had...

Le science de la Reve.

It's been a while since I have come out of a movie feeling joy and inspiration. But tonight...I saw The science of dreams, and life is a little different now. In my eyes, that film is a work of art, i mean ART. And if theres a film that is refelctive of how my brain works, this is one.

Are you surprised?

Today I put in the mail a letter to the Guthrie stating I will not be returning to understudy for Edgardo Mine....
Yes. That is my decision. As much as I want to see all my friends, I can always go back to visit, but I need to commit to my life and career here if I want it to work....not be tentative..you know. I need to be available these first months, for my new agent and the work I hope to get, because if I am not here, already I won't be able to get it. I also need to learn how to be an artist, and live the life I want here, and not escape everytime it gets rough. I am staying here. Je suis ici.

After a Long Day,....

When you are so meticulous in trying to make plans and make things work and then have entire workday of crazy mishaps(including locking your keys in the office late at night while trying to return shooting equipment.), you kinda have to loosen up by doing crazy spontaneous things, like Betsy coming to han gout with me at the office after mario came and unlocked the doors for me. Bets had a cravign to smoke ( or pretend spoke) clove cigarettes, because she doesnt inhale, and I needed a break and chocolate, so we headed for teh 24 hour starbucks for some coffee, fake smoking of clove cigarettes (erik laughed at how big of dorks we were.) and betsy gave me caramel cookies to dunk in the macchiato. We looked like idiots holding in the smoke to look like we were really doing it. Aaah, a good night of funni-ness.

Godo music.

I had myself a good cry today: Blake Minor's dad died yesterday, his mom having died earlier this year, and I couldn't help but think of the day I would lose my parents, my wonderful parents. It's beautiful when you start looking at the way the universe moves itself, the wya life balances out, becoming sensitive to the patterns and the music as opposed to individual occurrences. I have been reading about string theory....The smallest compriser of stuff they theorize are tiny one dimmensional vibrating strings, sort of like a quantum symphony, and that is what comprises all physical matter. We are composed of vibrating bands. Music. And my life, with its ups and downs, joys and griefs, has been playing a sort of jazz. A jazz that jars me awake with death, and puts me to sleep with love. Or at least a new "love." One that makes me happy and passionate. And if it doesnt go beyond this measure of my life.......on to the next movement right?

I am actually in the midst of figruing out what the theme of the next movement is...
I have been offerred a really good deal at Vantage poitn productions....pays well, plus I signed and agent this week...and I am beginning ot wonder if going back to the Guthrie is a good idea or not.

The question is...Do I want to pursue producing, directing and writing....?
Or do I honor my contract with the G, and take the opportunity to see all my wonderful friends?

As Promised.

I said I would put up the web address to my target.com spot when it came out.
Just so you know, the wardrobe people had bought everything big so i look pretty frumpy, and the lady who did my hair...well you'll see...

http://sites.target.com/site/en/corporate/page.jsp?contentId=PRD03-002477

go there and click on the Design link. Then you click on my silhouette.

Voila mon amix!

Ay AY AY

I missed it.
I missed Mexico's independence day...and consequently my grandmother's birthday.
And she lives in Mexico.
Well....Happy Mexican independence.

I've got a second. A second.

SO sorry dear readers for not having written as often as I did in Minneapolis. Not because there is nothing going on in my LA life, but because I am constantly moving, not having much time to just sit and write. But anyhow....

Here's the brief summary of late:

1. CA just passed the no cell phones while driving law.
2. I have a crush on a co-worker at the TV office.3. I havent cleaned my room and its a dreadful mess.
4. I quit Zara, did I mention that already?
5. I continue filming tomorrow.
6. I start auditioning classes and met some awesome people (the guy who's lindsey lohan's love interest in Just my Luck is int he class with me, including a kinda annoying 18 yr old really greeeen young wannabe actress. ah, not annoying, just young.)
7. VINCENT FINALLY GOT KICKED OFF PROJECT RUNWAY< PRAISE THE LORD.

More to come...

La vie est belle.

I had a pretty great weekend.

We started shooting Foreign Currency this weekend, where I play the lead in a short film about trafficking women, and it was a good time. Cast and crew were godo people, and....well, I am seeing the director, not just with my eyes but in real life. SO it was comfortable to work with him, except i felt a lot of pressure in my own mind to do well because I didnt want to mess up the movie of someone i cared about. I think it will do well. Houstonians: he's thinking of submitting it to a texas film festival so you may be able to see it. I am still amazed at how many minnesotans i meet here.

Afterword I cam home to a roomate and a puppy. Dara's bene dog sitting a petite chienne que s'appelle Daisy. So cute and adorable, and we had a good time walking her around the block as I spoke evry bit of French I knew because......

This morning I had my first french lesson! Which went very well. I want to speak it beacoup. I guess I taught myself pretty well, says the teacher too, and I actually know a little more than what the level requires. I mess up like evryone else but I think a trip in Paris is in order in the near future, to practice, you know.

Also waiting to hear back when I start working at the TV office again, since I quit Zara. very exciting stuff. En generale, Life is good.

I am making this face now.

No... nothign smells bad, I just have a grain of rice stuck up my nasal passage.

Things have been looking up, and I feel I am narrowing in on what I am supposed to do with my near future life, maybe. I will begin by saying i have been given keys to the tv production office ( i am somewhat official now!) Hmmm. I have always said i want to create and produce work......so why am i not doing that.

I think I ate bad cheese. this is the end of the blog. I want to go curl up in pain.

Blink.

I went home for two days this weekend, primarily for my cousin Chris's wedding. It went by too fast, but it was a good weekend.

I got to see my BFF Amanda and her BF Brian. I miss her so much and I look forward to the day when we live in the same city again. Well they were kind enough to invite me along to dinner with Brian's cousins, who (by the way) are such a genetically beautiful family, and super nice and fun to be around. Definitely a good night, the highlight being that I got to spend time with my girl. His cousins are also friends with the Bagwell's (as in Baseball) and apparently I look like Jeff's wife Erica.

Amanda-email me the pics so I can post one, even the ones you dont like...:-)

Also, Congratulations to Ellie who got engaged last week in Monaco Princess Grace style!
I predict the order of engagements will go Ellie then Amanda then Lindsey then me. Amanda thinks I am next. Maybe it will be Lindsey.....hmmm. Let's wait and see. ALso congrats to my cousin Areli who is now engaged!

Next day...saw my great grandma and my great aunt, who were telling me the only words they could speak in English after 35 years of living here, and several years of citizenship (those words were coffee, milk, and window.).

THEN....Chris and Andrea's wedding. May the pics speak for how much fun it was to be around everyone.


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