Tomorrow is my first audition in a week...I keep telling myself it's because i haven't joined SAG...but I keep seeing friends who aren't SAG book guest spots on TV...So that can't be....but comparing in this business....oh such a vicious cycle. It hadn't occurred to me until today that I hadn't had an audition because I've been up to so much else!
I ran into my long lost voice teacher at the gym, coincidentally as we sat right next to each other in cycle class at the gym. She was long lost because I could no longer afford her... but now we're trading services. And I am more than excited to start voice training again with a Sondheim audition at the end of the month. And even more exciting, perhaps I can start writing music now, as promised, with my now iPhone application Business Partner who was originally my Craigslist-found Spanish Guitarist for my gig at the Hive.
And today, I filed for Candidate Status to once again run for Neighborhood Council. Why would I want to volunteer all those free hours again? Well, because I love my community that much. Silver Lake makes it possible for me to bear Los Angeles. I truly believe that people who hate LA, learn to Love it when they find the community that belongs to them, that connects with their desires for a home. Silver Lake is that for me. So much so that I've become that girl trying to get stop signs put in on my corner intersection because the drivers are always speeding, and it's dangerous for pedestrians. I've become that girl.
LIstening to Hector Elizondo the other night at the Michael Laskin Studio was inspiring. He's such a gracious, passionate man. Listening to him was good affirmation that I'm right on track...because even though i haven't auditioned in a week, I'm doing all those things that make me a complete person, citizen, and artist. And that is enough...
Friday, January 15, 2010
Friday, January 01, 2010
First Things First
Ive been moving into the apartment across the hall all day ( i love moving, i really do), and I got this sudden feeling that I was going to be alone: as I folded my intimate apparel, tucking it into my flower lined drawer, hung my Audrey frame over my teal writing desk, I periodically reminded myself that it was the New Year! and things were supposed to be different.
I never believed in resolutions, because I never believed New Year's Day was any different than any other, and if I wanted to change my life there was no point in waiting for that day to do it. But this year, perhaps because it's been such a trying year, this year I felt such a strong longing for today and what this new number would bring. What kept frustrating me as I put my things in my new place was that I knew nothing would be different if I didn't make it different, and suddenly I felt compelled to make a list of things I wanted to do. And so I discovered the "Resolution." And if it wasn't that I discovered the Resolution on the day I was moving into a smaller cheaper apartment, I probably wouldn't have felt as compelled to make them. I don't even know what they will be...I'm making them up now because I can't continue to move things with such anxiety....
in no particular order...
A) Spend less time alone- I am very good at being alone, but I love the company of those I love, and I need to make more of an effort to "see" people...
B) Live like an artist- maybe ill finally finish my painting? or the writing projects I began last year...or live the way I used to live where everything was so beautiful and the smallest moment or object could be the source of inspiration and pleasure.
C) Get back on track with my health- I've been poor these past few months and have really let go...
D) Get a job- you know, i don't know about this one. I know I need to get a job. But as soon as I thought about it I thought...well make acting my job...and then I remembered that despite being day-job-less, last year my main source of income was from acting...so I guess the real goal this year is realllllly go after it fiercely...
E) I wanna be in a relationship- I said that for myself last year, but I think it was a year of just letting go, and enjoying moments as they came, but it would be nice to cultivate a relationship with a romantic partner :)
F) Spend more time on my community- I want to run for SLNC again when elections come up in March, and I want to do a better job at it.
G)Apply for grad school.....could this finally be the year???
H)
And because I really don't believe in Resolutions..more will probably surface. OOh like, make my bed, be tidy, and put things back where they belong. I tell myself those everyday.
I never believed in resolutions, because I never believed New Year's Day was any different than any other, and if I wanted to change my life there was no point in waiting for that day to do it. But this year, perhaps because it's been such a trying year, this year I felt such a strong longing for today and what this new number would bring. What kept frustrating me as I put my things in my new place was that I knew nothing would be different if I didn't make it different, and suddenly I felt compelled to make a list of things I wanted to do. And so I discovered the "Resolution." And if it wasn't that I discovered the Resolution on the day I was moving into a smaller cheaper apartment, I probably wouldn't have felt as compelled to make them. I don't even know what they will be...I'm making them up now because I can't continue to move things with such anxiety....
in no particular order...
A) Spend less time alone- I am very good at being alone, but I love the company of those I love, and I need to make more of an effort to "see" people...
B) Live like an artist- maybe ill finally finish my painting? or the writing projects I began last year...or live the way I used to live where everything was so beautiful and the smallest moment or object could be the source of inspiration and pleasure.
C) Get back on track with my health- I've been poor these past few months and have really let go...
D) Get a job- you know, i don't know about this one. I know I need to get a job. But as soon as I thought about it I thought...well make acting my job...and then I remembered that despite being day-job-less, last year my main source of income was from acting...so I guess the real goal this year is realllllly go after it fiercely...
E) I wanna be in a relationship- I said that for myself last year, but I think it was a year of just letting go, and enjoying moments as they came, but it would be nice to cultivate a relationship with a romantic partner :)
F) Spend more time on my community- I want to run for SLNC again when elections come up in March, and I want to do a better job at it.
G)Apply for grad school.....could this finally be the year???
H)
And because I really don't believe in Resolutions..more will probably surface. OOh like, make my bed, be tidy, and put things back where they belong. I tell myself those everyday.
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