Last night brought on feelings of deep nostalgia. Amaryah is moving to Chicago, as is Harmony in August, and last night was her last mini-concert at EP Atelier Coffee Shop. I hadn't seen them in months, and now they're leaving. I remember first meeting them when they came to see my show with Susie. And the night we were sitting outside of Cafetto and witnessed the shooting at the Superamerica. ANd making dinner for them, the night i realized Adam was annoying the shit out if me.
I believe I am pretty good at handling loss. I always seem to be going somewhere, moving somewhere, leaving people. These past months though, it seems as if everyone has been leaving. And in the coming months more will too, including me. Ibanga moves to India mid June, Will is leaving on a spiritual retreat.
Alison left last week. I remember when we'd go to the West Bank skyway on our Theatre History break and buy the little holiday toys. That one crazy night at Drink where we hung out with those nice guys.
Before that, Matt moved to Chicago. I didn't even get to see him.
Before that Betsy moved to LA. I will see her soon. Betsy and I have some good memories. Like our little Stratford Upon Avon trip in England. And shopping for her, ahem, Bday present, and how I am her little kitty, Pheobe's, Spirit/God mother even though I am allergic to her.
Before that, Susie moved to LA, will see her soon too. I remember Susie visiting me with Adam and bringing over large chunks of Wuollet's Princess Torte and Chocolate torte when she learned I broke up with Adam, and the day I helped her load the LA truck up.
Then Adam moved before she moved. Aah, Adam, who always played my brother or lover or son in the BFA plays. Adam who shared soynuts with me in Plant Propagation, and Adam who really was like my brother.(Susie and me both dated Adams. This one belonged to her.)
And the list of movers goes on and on. I am thankful that no one has left me by way of death yet. I don't even want to think about ever losing my father. The man was on an airplane 9/11 morning.
Spending time with Harm and Am reminded me of the person I'd forgotten I was. I am bringing her back, and even though it may not be outwardly noticeable, I will be aware.
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