One Margarita is all it took....I'm a cheap date...but not in that way.

Leaving the Breaking Ice Team behind at the little airport cafe, I was holding back tears- partly because I'd just eaten real TX BBQ brisket, but mostly because I waas leaving my friends again- really wonderful people who I miss and who inspire me.

Breaking Ice is a Pillsbury House Theatre company that I worked with in Mpls with which I have done some of my most fulfilling work. It's a company that continually challenges people and the artist. To explain the work we do is hard enough in person, so blog form is even worse, but because they travel to do shows, they asked me to join them again for a west coast/dallas tour performing a show I helped create. I of course jumped at the chance.

This time the company was a bit different, but a great group comprised of...

Ellen:who is also a dear friend, fellow artist, and co-member of Lighthouse Group Theater Company (A group I am still a part of though I moved away).

Kurt: One of the funniest people I know, who I also told I had a huge crush on him the night of my birthday (read May14's blog).

Jonas: My lovely boy, we went to acting school together, I took care of him one night in ER freshman year, and who is super successful young leading man at the Guthrie these days.
John: Who I met and worked with before but definitely got to know better on this trip, he kept me laughing the whole time and inspired me like dali cause he produces so mcuh work and takes so many risks.

Alex: A new member, but what a good soul.
Anton: The new super chill company manager

AND
Heidi: A great spirited director who is so accepting of the individual and who is constantly challenging the work.
Meeting up with them at first it felt like very little time had passed, I mean , yeah, I had a lot of catching up to do with folks (Ellen, in particular, as we like to share dating dramas.), but I was amazed at how much of the show i had retained. At rehearsal in Sacramento that first night I was overjoyed to be performing again. To warm up, rehearse, use my b ody and voice and creativity!

I MISS THAT SO MUCH; DONC, I NEED TO PRODUCE WORK.

We were also hooked up with awesome hotels every night, though Ellen and me were let down by the Bathroom goodies.

Sunday night we ate at Hamburger Mary's and then hung out in Ellen's room where John took polaroids of us with his facy polaroid camera (pictures up soon).

The next day the performance was good- not at its best- but good.
Highlights:
We started the "jam" so slow that Ellens aid her phrase "Thousands of possibilities..." so slowly Kurt thought she had cracked.

Alex not knowing what scene was next so he moved a chair and stood at the back of Kurt and Ellen's scene leaving people to wonder what a black man was doing in their kitchen.

Me sitting in the sidelines, checked out, so I didn't realize the scene had ended even though there was a 30 sec long pregnant pause where people were wiating for my line.

Ah Well...

On to Los Angeles.

At brunch I sat with Jonas. (And ate liek 5 mini croissants.) It was the first time in a while I sat with someone and had an engaging conversation about politics, life, art. I mean with many LA-ers I have the usual, "yeah Bush sucks, whats up with the country conevrsation....insert headline here....including the big news that LA dogs can sniff out DVDs now to protect against pirating....

But jonas and i had an actual conversation. I miss those. Not because I get to hear myself speak or blah blah blah, but because I learn so much listening.

That night, at the Hyatt near Disneyland we had dinner nearby, real Mexican, so of course we were all gassy later in the night.

The next day we performed our most solid show. Perhaps thanks to Ellen's Haitian warmup which Jon did so well...no really Jon :-)

Unfortunatley that audience did not provide me and Ellen any men for us to choose as our pretend boyfriends.

At the airport...Ellen made me aware of something I knew and I am sure others were also aware of but had anyone else said anything I would've hit the defense button ASAP:

I have not been choosing guys...men...who treat me well.
I mean I guess Tony did(toowell), and Cleveland, and Adam and Taylor and Peter (btw these boys weren't all at the same time, we're talkign several years of dating.)
So i guess that statements not entirely true, I mean i date to figure out if a guy will work out and so far none have. SO I end it and thats why I havent had a relationship. Because why push something that won't work? right?

But I do think I have been movign too quickly into physical relationships. That's something I know is not in my character and I don't want it to be. I mean it happened recently with the TV guy (so now when I see him at work I try to forget anything ever happened.) But i had hoped and actually believed it would be more. But like Ellie and me discussed when she picked me up form the airport....guys here are strange. Tehy freak out over imaginary problems.

Well anyhoo...point is...I haven't met a guy in LA who has been suitable, or frankly, thats smart enough (and i have met a few.)

So funnily Ellen stuck an article in my French book whiel I was sleeping on the plane, the article being about how smart men in LA are really tired of the dumb actress/pretty type. My question is, where are these men and how do I find them?

Enough of that.

On our last night together we had dinner at a nice restaurant in Dallas where I had ONE Margarita and that's all it took to get me.... well too affect me. Afterall I had been detoxing, but apparently I was saying crazy things to Jon and Jonas. HAHA. The next day I felt sick. And consequently that BBQ at the airport made me feel even worse.



Here are some more funny moments....

Jon turning to Anton saying," You're black? I thought you were raggae."

Jon telling us about his ex with bad breath: Her breath smelled so bad my shit started to smell like it... because when we kissed we were sharing bacteria.

Jon saying: I'm gonna sleep like a Mexican Chili.

Jon using: Boom wak as his rhythm in the Jam.


Hahhaha that Jon.

I miss them already.

Perhaps I"ll see them soon...