
I had (have) really fantastic parents. I couldn't ask for better guides, inspirations, support, than they. Which is why I was so hurt to hear my mother say my father thought I didn't want to be around them, or he thought he was not a good parent and thats why I wanted to move away. I was hurt because it saddens me that that could be an idea in my father's head. Most of the time I wish I was around them, but this is where life and my career has brought me.
To better explain my father's sentiment, you've got to know a little bit abotu Mexican culture. Not Mexican-American, but Mexican. My father, afterall, didnt move to the US untile after he married my mother and went to grad school here. So in Mexico a girl doesn't leave home until she marries. Now, my father never tried to keep me home...he understood that I wanted to go to the best school and would go wherever, and he encouraged that and my education and even encouraged me to leave Minnesota to move out here. But I know he misses me, and deep down wants his daughter close to home again. I don't think I could tell him enough how much I want to be near them...he teaches me so much (and yeah angers me a bit sometimes too), but until I am home again I am sure (like the little gemini that he is) he will be sad that his little girl isnt by his side all the time. What he also doesnt realize is that he has set a high standard for the other men in her life, so until she finds better....he's enough.

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