Revamped

What is it that I do? What is my ultimate goal? I mean, do people actually like to answer these questions....or feel satisfied with the answers? I didn't until I started saying "I live life." or "I do a lot of things" or "My ultimate goal is to live the life I want." And I get the usual response of "Well you have to choose or want something..." And ofcourse.....I do...a lot of things....and that's how I live my life.

Some call it restless, others may call it scattered or unfocused, others say that I am still young and haven't figured out what I want; but those who actually know me know that those things don't seem to accurately describe me or the way I live. I know, I know, I am not the only one living like this. There are lots of people who choose the a-typical path of life. The one where you don't choose one career to follow forever, or where your career defines "what you do," or where an ultimate life goal is a thing far of in the future that you must strive for as opposed to the thing your strive for everyday. I know I am not the only one....but it's not common. Even among the people who think they live this way! Otherwise I wouldn't be asked all the time, what I do. Or questioned on how I can live my life the way I do.

Some say that perhaps my interest in such a wide range of subjects has to do with fear: of failing, of falling into stability, of choosing. Well, considering I don't ever fail (as I see my shortcomings as doors or steps to my next journey), and that I wouldn't mind getting a steady paycheck or finding the love of my life now, and that I do choose one path often and then feel as if though I am negating other parts of myself in the process...those things they say...well...pft. And as my taurean stubborness describes, I will be stubborn enough to knock down any other explanation of why I am the way I am, because I have spent the longest time with myself and would know.

It's different, and difficult, and unstable, and it's a way of life I want to uphold: who knows if it will work. That's why I am revamping this blog....to document my journal of this wierd, er uh, atypical life I lead, to figure out if it works or not, or what in the world my ultimate life goal is if it is really there to uncover. Not to put down any other person's way of life or decisions....but to figure out if the A-typical life is possible in such a traditional world.

I will keep a count of when I am asked one of those two questions I despise:

Today
Ultimate Goal:Asked once by noon.